i hate my life at home its not home anymore by elizabeth layfield

I hate living here in my house. I can't stand the fighting anymore, my mom's taking away my computer and I didn't do anything! Somebody stole 260 $ from us and my mother said to me," Go ahead, right there's my purse go ahead and take the money." She thinks I stole the fuckin' money! Im tired of being here, so many times I have tried to kill myseld with sleeping pills and they would never work. My boyfriend, Chris, means the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without him. He is the person keeping me from trying different ways to kill myself. He is my saver and I love him with all my heart and soul. Years ago when I wrecked my bike and was rolling down a very steep hill with hit, when I finally stopped I looked up because I saw a little boy there. I asked him what he wanted and he just smiled at me and looked at all my scratches but not once did he even lay his hand on me. He looked only a little older than me but he didn't look real. I couldn't believe my eyes when he gave me one last smile and just disappeared out of nowhere. When I got home my legs and arms were all scratched up. The next morning I woke up and there was not even one scratch! This has stuck with me ever since that wreck. But everytime I should've died something would alwasy stop me from dying. Like it was healing me from the inside. Now I realize that the little boy I saw when I wrecked must have been Chris. I know half of you will think im nuts and they need to put me into a mental hospital but sometimes I have dreams about people I don't know and then those people I have actually have met after having those dreams. And I think Chris has been there with me even before I met him, trying to save me. He might not have been there personally but I think that that little boy I saw was Chris. I don't know why or how I just know it was him. And Chris is keeping me from dying again and I just hope that I'll be able to get away from this house and go somewhere that will help me getaway from these people. They're not hurting me like cutting smacking or anything hand to hand but they're hurting me mentally. They put me down so much and I get so depressed. I feel like I'm one of those people who kills themselves because of bullying but they are being bullied by people at school not by there own family and who knows maybe I am one of those people. I guess I'm not as strong as all my friends thought. Sure I'm strong physically but not mentally I'm losing hope of living. I don't want to die but I don't want to be here in this place anymore. I need a break from my family members and I need to go somewhere that'll make me happy.



Will you be able to save me again Chris? I don't know if you can but I'm working hard to save myself.And I will always love you.

This did work on me my boyfriend finally kissed me today I love u chris!!!

Girl : Do you want to be with me forever?
Boy : NO.
Girl : Would you cry if I walked away? Boy : NO.
She heard enough, and was hurt. She walked
away, tears ran down her face. The boy
grabbed her arm.
Boy : Your not pretty, your beautiful. I don't
want to be with you forever, I NEED to be.
with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you.
walked away, I would DIE.
(Boy whispers) : Please? Stay with me.
(Girl whispers) : I will.
Tonight at midnight your true love will realize.
they love you. Something good will happen.
to you between 1-4 pm. Tomorrow it could.
be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock.
of your life! If you don't post this to 5 other.
pages. You will have relationship problems.
for the next 10 years.
(no posting it back to me thats not fair)




Do you ever think about me?

                                       Yes
In the middle of the night when you awake....
Are you calling out my name?
                                           Yes
                                                  You miss him when he's away. So send this to him today and don't you forget....I Love You.
Don't forget him, he's your life.
Speak his name, Remeber his face,
Kiss him,
and stay in his warm embrace,
Remeber he has only you,
Dont forget him when they play your song,
Remeber when you stayed with him all night long,
Remeber how close you two are,
Remeber he hasn't chosen her,
Remember his walk,
Remember how he talks,
Remeber the things he says and keep it in your heart and head,
Remember he hasn't gone astray,
Remember his laugh, remember his grin,
Remeber the way he holds you tight all day and all night,
Remeber he's with you tonight,
Hope the time doesn't go too fast,
Hope the love lasts,
Don't forget when he said he'd never leave you,
Remember the he's here forever

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shadow by britney spears

kitty cat song

this is for Chris... its a poem i found online 1 of my favs though

Since the day we first met,
I knew it was love,
God answered my prayers,
you came down from above…
You gave me your heart,
and taught me to trust,
for the first time ever,
it was more than just lust…
Your sweet loving words,
are not to be compared,
I am forever your partner,
my soul I have bared…
Every day I wake up,
with a smile a mile long,
I know that we are solid,
I know that we are strong…
So never put into question,
my feelings being true,
because I have found my one and only,
And I hope I will always be with you.
I love You

more funny stuff

Please have an open mind about this by Elizabeth Layfield

Hello, my name is Lizzy.Most people know my either as Elizabeth or Lizzy Layfield. I'm fourteen years old and I love to write. Im very open minded and I hate it when people won't consider the possibility of ALL things. Here is a question for everyone: I have been thinking about this ever since I was in middle school. Is there truly a God? If so, why did he create us? I believe that (im not atheist I only have an open mind) while are bodies waste away and die, our souls stay immortal. I believe that once we (our) bodies die we reincarnate into another body and having forget our past lives, we just keep on reincarnating into other bodies until we fufill our true destiny (though im not sure what that is for you or me) but once we do fufill our destiny we either go to heaven or hell. Or we go to a place inbetween (considering none of us can actually be sure if this is true whether heaven or hell exists let alone a God we can always hope). I also believe that hell isn't just getting burned for infinity or whatever, I think hell is somewhere where everyone has to live through all of their mistakes and fears over and over again until we can rise above or fears and realize that our mistakes happened in the past and that we can NOT change the past but we can change the future.So my question is: Are you going to have an open mind and consider this possibility or do you have your own theory? Or will you just ignore all of this and not belive a single word? If you want to ask me questions or talk to me or send in replys my email is everlasting131lizzy.AOL.com thanks for having an open mind!

Funny Stuff

I took a bath with bubbles, Bubbles was a Guy.

A true Friend By Elizabeth Layfield

I would love to give thanks to my best friend Chris, who has helped me through the most terrible promblems I've had. He has helped me get over my breakup and my promblems. He has been there for me even after I broke up with him. He has never stopped loving me and well, my mom isn't going to like this, but I have never truly stopped loving him either. He's the one who knows all my secrets and he only told one of my secrets to protect me from getting into anymore trouble with my mom for creating a facebook. Yes, at the age of 14 I am not allowed a facebook. I only created one because I wanted a way to keep in touch with my friends and I put myself under a fake name so only those who are my friends new my true identity. Even though my name is my identity I never truly shown my true identity of who I am. I've worn a costume or what I would like to call a wall, to protect myself from everyone else. I never let anyone in on who I am. My friends and my family have no idea of who I am. They dont know about the wall I've built from keeping people well out of my mind. To never know what I think, or how I really am. The only person who figured me out was Chris. He was the one person who climbed into my mind and heart and figured out who I am. For that he is a true, amazing friend. Nobody can compare to him. Not my former bestfriend, Lexy and not my other bestfriend, Leah. Only Chris and I know who I am. This blog is to Chris especially and if you read this, Chris, I want you to know that you are the only person in my life who makes me feel special. You are an amazing, wondeful person. You might have a couple of downsides but you keep my secrets and I'll keep yours. I dont know if you are my soulmate but who said we can't be? Sure, my mom doesn't approve of, well your choices in life, but she can't decide who I will love and who I wont. There is only one person who controls my life and that's me! I will not let one single person tell me who to hang with and who to love. If she doesn't like that, well than I have no other choice than to say: Farewell! Thankyou Chris for being there for me and now I will be there for you too.

My Breakup by Elizabeth Layfield

I broke up with my boyfriend, Anthony, and thanks to Logan (Not really) he knew before I told him. People had been spreading rumors about us having sex and doing other nasty stuff when we hadn't. Anthony thought that's why I broke up with him but I didn't break up with because of that. I broke up with him because I no longer had feelings for him. I told him that why should I lead him on when I dont love him and he would the only one getting hurt? I hope we can still be friends I truly, truly, do wish that but one can only hope. The last thing he told me was that he still loves me. We have only one class together and that's gym. It's going to feel akward during gym but at least I still have my friends, who shouldn't have taken me back so easily after I dumped them for a guy. I'm sorry to all my friends who I have dumped for Anthony and Im sorry to Anthony for breaking your heart when that was the last thing I wanted to do because I know how it feels to have a broken heart. If you are reading this, Anthony, I had a right to dump you because it's not right dating you, telling you I love you, when I dont. You will get over the breakup eventually and hopefully you will find someone who loves you for who you really are. For some of those out there in a relationship, you cant love more than the other if you want to find your soulmate. If you found your soulmate, you love equally and trust each other with no lies.

Journey

Highschool is a journey for all. The girls get their first boyfriend, and have to pick their dream dress for homecoming. Boys get into sports and are interested in new girls. Here is the music video I picked for highschool:

Funny bunnies

Happy Easter!

Here's some funny bunny videos!

Face Down

Okay, I heard this song from The Liberty Highschools' Liberty Idol. It's called Face Down and I heard Cole Magruder singing it. Cole won the Liberty Idol, and Sarah Smith won the peoples' choice awards. Well, here's to all the men that treat us woman horribly:

To Love By Elizabeth Layfield For Anthony my boyfriend

You know when you're in love when...
He makes you laugh.
You know when you're in love when...
You notice everything about him.
You know when you're in love when...
You get butterflies in your stomach.
You know when you're in love when...
You cry because you're afraid to lose him.
You know when you're in love when...
You he does break your heart and you rather have him break your bones.
To love is to know you can't last forever.
But He will be in your heart forever.
To love is to enjoy every moment with him.
To love is to not be afraid to say, "I Love You"
To love is to not care what others think.
So I know what love is.
So to love is to be with you.
I Love you.


This is to my boyfriend Anthony. I belong to him and nobody else. This is our 1st anniversary. Happy anniversary honey. I love you.

Liberty Highschool Dance

Yesterday, March 17,2012, was the Liberty Highschool dance. Admission was five dollars single, eight dollars liberty couple, and fifteen dollars a liberty student and outside guest. Not many students showed up. I went with my boyfriend Anthony, and we've been dancing since we got in there. We came early, and once the music started we were on the dancefloor. It was a great evening to hangout, dance, and talk to your friends. Everybody that came won a whole hour of lunch on Wednesday, March 21,2012. I had a great time and I hope we have another dance soon.

something you dance for

something to dance for/ttylxox

where do i go from here pocahontas

some of my favorite music

i just wanted to say..

I just wanted to say that the stories on here that dont have by elizabeth layfield or by someone then i got them off a website that allows you to copyright its called http://academictips.org/blogs

A Blind girl

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying:
“Just take care of my eyes dear.”

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This is how human brain changes when the status changed. Only few remember what life was before, and who’s always been there even in the most painful situations.
Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word–
think of someone who can’t speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food–
think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife–
think of someone who is crying out to God for a companion.
Today before you complain about life–
think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children–
think of someone who desires children but they’re barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn’t clean or sweep–
think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive–
think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job–
think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another–
remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down–
put a smile on your face and thank God you’re alive and still around.

Life is a gift – Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, and Fulfill it.

What Can I say Sheliegh

The little boy

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: “How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?”
The surgeon said, “I’m sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn’t make it.”
Sally said, “Why do little children get cancer? Doesn’t God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?”
The surgeon asked, “Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he’s transported to the university.”
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
“Would you like a lock of his hair?” the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy’s hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, “It was Jimmy’s idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. “I said no at first, but Jimmy said, ‘Mom, I won’t be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.” She went on, “My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.”
Sally walked out of Children’s mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy’s belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy’s belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son’s room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
“Dear Mom,
I know you’re going to miss me; but don’t think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just ’cause I’m not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won’t be so lonely, that’s okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn’t like the same things us boys do. You’ll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don’t be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn’t look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God’s knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That’s when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn’t allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him ‘Where was He when I needed him?’ “God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I’ve written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn’t that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I’m, sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don’t hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I’m glad because I couldn’t stand that pain anymore and God couldn’t stand to see me hurt so much, either. That’s when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.”

Bella Thorne TTYLXOX Lyrics

Watch this I love the songs from Shake it Up!

What I Dream About by Elizabeth Layfield

I dream of being a writer;
I dream of a world away from this place;
I dream of being different from others;
I dream of going to WVU;
I dream of finding the Garden of Eve;
I dream of adventure;
I dream of being famous like J.K.Rowling;
I dream of having my bestfriend Leah by side wherever I go;
I dream of dreams.

True Friends by Elizabeth Layfield

 A friend is someone who loves you;
 Someone who will stand by your side no matter what;
Someone who knows you;
You love them.
They love you.
A friend is someone who will protect you no matter what;
They are the sunshine in your life;
A friend will help you no matter what;
Even though we get in fights,
We make it through..
Like true friends do.