i hate my life at home its not home anymore by elizabeth layfield

I hate living here in my house. I can't stand the fighting anymore, my mom's taking away my computer and I didn't do anything! Somebody stole 260 $ from us and my mother said to me," Go ahead, right there's my purse go ahead and take the money." She thinks I stole the fuckin' money! Im tired of being here, so many times I have tried to kill myseld with sleeping pills and they would never work. My boyfriend, Chris, means the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without him. He is the person keeping me from trying different ways to kill myself. He is my saver and I love him with all my heart and soul. Years ago when I wrecked my bike and was rolling down a very steep hill with hit, when I finally stopped I looked up because I saw a little boy there. I asked him what he wanted and he just smiled at me and looked at all my scratches but not once did he even lay his hand on me. He looked only a little older than me but he didn't look real. I couldn't believe my eyes when he gave me one last smile and just disappeared out of nowhere. When I got home my legs and arms were all scratched up. The next morning I woke up and there was not even one scratch! This has stuck with me ever since that wreck. But everytime I should've died something would alwasy stop me from dying. Like it was healing me from the inside. Now I realize that the little boy I saw when I wrecked must have been Chris. I know half of you will think im nuts and they need to put me into a mental hospital but sometimes I have dreams about people I don't know and then those people I have actually have met after having those dreams. And I think Chris has been there with me even before I met him, trying to save me. He might not have been there personally but I think that that little boy I saw was Chris. I don't know why or how I just know it was him. And Chris is keeping me from dying again and I just hope that I'll be able to get away from this house and go somewhere that will help me getaway from these people. They're not hurting me like cutting smacking or anything hand to hand but they're hurting me mentally. They put me down so much and I get so depressed. I feel like I'm one of those people who kills themselves because of bullying but they are being bullied by people at school not by there own family and who knows maybe I am one of those people. I guess I'm not as strong as all my friends thought. Sure I'm strong physically but not mentally I'm losing hope of living. I don't want to die but I don't want to be here in this place anymore. I need a break from my family members and I need to go somewhere that'll make me happy.



Will you be able to save me again Chris? I don't know if you can but I'm working hard to save myself.And I will always love you.

This did work on me my boyfriend finally kissed me today I love u chris!!!

Girl : Do you want to be with me forever?
Boy : NO.
Girl : Would you cry if I walked away? Boy : NO.
She heard enough, and was hurt. She walked
away, tears ran down her face. The boy
grabbed her arm.
Boy : Your not pretty, your beautiful. I don't
want to be with you forever, I NEED to be.
with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you.
walked away, I would DIE.
(Boy whispers) : Please? Stay with me.
(Girl whispers) : I will.
Tonight at midnight your true love will realize.
they love you. Something good will happen.
to you between 1-4 pm. Tomorrow it could.
be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock.
of your life! If you don't post this to 5 other.
pages. You will have relationship problems.
for the next 10 years.
(no posting it back to me thats not fair)




Do you ever think about me?

                                       Yes
In the middle of the night when you awake....
Are you calling out my name?
                                           Yes
                                                  You miss him when he's away. So send this to him today and don't you forget....I Love You.
Don't forget him, he's your life.
Speak his name, Remeber his face,
Kiss him,
and stay in his warm embrace,
Remeber he has only you,
Dont forget him when they play your song,
Remeber when you stayed with him all night long,
Remeber how close you two are,
Remeber he hasn't chosen her,
Remember his walk,
Remember how he talks,
Remeber the things he says and keep it in your heart and head,
Remember he hasn't gone astray,
Remember his laugh, remember his grin,
Remeber the way he holds you tight all day and all night,
Remeber he's with you tonight,
Hope the time doesn't go too fast,
Hope the love lasts,
Don't forget when he said he'd never leave you,
Remember the he's here forever

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shadow by britney spears

kitty cat song

this is for Chris... its a poem i found online 1 of my favs though

Since the day we first met,
I knew it was love,
God answered my prayers,
you came down from above…
You gave me your heart,
and taught me to trust,
for the first time ever,
it was more than just lust…
Your sweet loving words,
are not to be compared,
I am forever your partner,
my soul I have bared…
Every day I wake up,
with a smile a mile long,
I know that we are solid,
I know that we are strong…
So never put into question,
my feelings being true,
because I have found my one and only,
And I hope I will always be with you.
I love You

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